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Its raining its pouring...

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 15:44:13 GMT

I woke up with killer cramps....already a sign of a terrible day to come. After dressing super fast, I laid across my couch with a heating pad on my tummy. After about 10 mins the cramps finally stopped. I now head out my house and Im greeted by wind and rain. Awesome right?! As I make my way down the block to catch the bus, I turn on my phone to call my moms to tell her and my sister to make sure they bundle up, but before I can even push the button my phone is ringing. I automatically think, who is calling me from a 718 number at 7am. Oh it was "him" not HIM like I would have liked. Anyways, the ex ex ex boyfriend calls me. I can already tell that he is recovering from one of his drinking binges. I think to myself, isnt today his call back interview, yeah it is. I just smh and keep listening to him talk. It never fails with him. As some as he get some liquid courage in his system its like he gets liquid love in his heart. But I had enough of this back and fault crap. Him and I are simply not meant to be.

When we were younger, we were able to make it work, but now that we are grown. We've grown to see things differently. I dont want to be with someone who I argue with 89% of the time with. Im down with compromising, but you cant do that with sonmeone who honestly believes that nothing is ever their fault. I admit, I wanted him back. I wanted him badly, but then I realized that I didnt really want him. I just wanted to have someone to call mine. I also wanted him, so that "SHE" could havent him. I wont even begin to give that chick any shine on my blog, so now back to what I was typing...I was paying him attention, and he played me. Now that Im focus on other things, and other people around me, now he wants to pay attention to me. Its to late tho, because I officially like HIM.

When I say HIM im refering to this guy that ive been getting to know since late june-early july. He is AMAZING.. He is different from the rest. I want him like nobody's bizzness. He is sweat, understanding, caring, challenging, smart, attractive. He has so many qualities that it would be impossible to list. Right now, we arent officially an item. He's into taking things slow, and Im okay with that. I like this slow pace, its allowing me to learn more and more about him each and every time we hang out. We've been seeing each other, every weekend. Due to the fact that he lives in Brooklyn, and Im in the bronx....plus with my crazy work scheduled, my free time is only on the weekends.

Damn cramps are coming back Im outta here peeps, but to get some painkillers in my system.

STILL SMILING chicas

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 22:43:30 GMT

HE left not to long ago. He ended up spending the weekend over mi casa again. This wasnt planned, but it was still amazing. We had a real chill time. I brought a huge $27 bottle of Svedka Vodka....We didnt even make it past the bottom of the label and we were saucy. We had about 7 shots, with oj chasers. I was super dizzy after that. GOOD TIMES. Tell me why I broke a blood vessel in my eye. I think it was from blowing chunks last night. I dont know about you, but for me, its hard to sleep after drinking, because I always feel nauseous so I had to force myself to blow chunks so I could sleep.

Definitely not looking forward to returning back to work tomorrow. Already looking towards saturday night, which isnt a good thing, when the week hasnt even started yet.

cant stop smiling

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 10:33:54 GMT

right now im on the bus on my way to work. wish i had a few more hours of sleep. but its okay bcuz i had an amazing weekend. i was able to spend the entire week with HIM. it was a weekend of cuddling, joking,laughing, sports, getting to know more about each other and more. i was upset for about 2.5 secs at some randomness but HE was able to bring a smile bck to my face. well we r taking things one step at a time. its a new way of doing things but i kinda like it. oh well no plans for this upcoming weekend yet.

THINGS CHANGE

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 20:23:12 GMT

First let me start off by contining where my last post left off. So in my last post, you could clearly tell that I was in a confused state of mind. Ive currently interested in a boy and I ve been dealing with the idea that I may be stuck in the dreaded "friend zone". Now before you guys say anything, yes girls can also be trapped in that glass box labeled the friend zone. Im really really feeling this dude, he is a completely different type of guy from the ones I have dated in the past, (cliche sounding I know, but its true). A true gentlemen in every way. Not wanting to rush things. Ive respected that, and I like that. But then I started to think maybe he wasnt feeling me the way Im feeling him. But Ive recently recieved the info that I need to know that Im not stuck in the friend zone. He's feeling me the way Im feeling him. I got him outta that, I wanna take things slow mood, too "Karla I know what I said before, but I really really like you. " So no we are not an official item. We are taking things one step at a time. Getting to know each other completely before diving in.

Now onto a little recap on my life since graduating in May. Dee and I had started to hang out again, but thats no longer the case. Ive realized from the last disagreement that we clearly never fixed our issues, we just covered them up. We needed each other for entertainment, to help fight the boredom. That was all. I still love her like a sister, but at the same time things were said to me, that Ill never forget. I could NEVER allow myself to be friends with someone who felt the way she did or does about me. So Ive closed out that chapter in my life.

The spanish crew is beefing too. Im hoping they squash it. I dont wanna be the monkey in the middle. Weve all been friends for WAY to long for a misunderstanding to causes drama between them. Imma have to arrange a get together to end the madness.

I truly love my FAMILY to death. We are an amazing crew. Even tho we have our slight family issues we will come together to help each other, with no questions asked.

Ive been chillen with Malcy and Scott alot lately. Scott is a true friend, he allows me to vent but at the same time, he lets me know when Im wrong. He is someone that I can call up to go to a movies with, and not have to worry about drama persuing. Malcy has been doing his sober thing. Ive been trying to be a friend to him. Weve been hanging out alot more, but we have come to an agreement that something romantic wont be going down between us. Hes someone that I can depend on to. Hes not afraid to call me on my bullshit.

Ive been working for my uncle since Sept. Im the office manager for his Auto Detailing Company. My hours are crazy. I work Monday-Saturday from 9am-6pm, and I usually dont get home until 8. So when Saturday night and sunday come, Im always trying to do something, because I dont have much of a social life.

sometimes I hate being a girl...

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 22:08:43 GMT

i hate being a girl, because my mind always has me thinking. More like over thinking which is the exact problem. why must us females over think things. for a example you are interested in a guy, and he seems interested in you, but at the same time you are wondering what does he think about you. you start to try to act a certain way but you know its not true to your nature, so you just be yourself, but you arent sure if he understands who u are. i dont know...this blog may or may not make sense, i dont really care.

Listening: "Go Hard" Nicki Minja Ft. Lil Wayne

BACKKKkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk...........!

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 17:59:59 GMT

Sorry people Ive been super distracted......but of course I had to return to the place it all started, and thats Xanga. Ive been distracted with making sure I graduated on time, which I did on MAY 15th. Im now an alumni of the University of Maryland Eastern Shore with a B.S. in Marketing.........go me!!! Ive also moved back to New York for good........adios PRINCESS ANNE, MD........I wont miss you....but ill miss the people. Ive been interviewing at different places trying to put this degree to good use.

Im back Xanga.............not sure how often Ill updated but I will when something super amazing happens. I be on twitter alot..........so if you wanna follow me here goes @BigGalSwagg , so follow me, I promise to steer u in the right direction. Dee and I have been talking and hanging out again, after not socializing with each other in a minute. So thats cool.

Its summer 09 and Im just looking to have a good time. I havent been in New York during the summer for the past 2 yrs.................so im trying to catch up.

The Final Countdown....

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 13:44:03 GMT

Well I only have two more days of classes left. Ive been on the grind for the past month...so all my assignments are done. I not running around here like a chicken with my head chopped off like alot of people I know. I told them before they need to step their game up, and get on their grind, but now they are seeming to get left behind.

Imma dedicate the rest of my time to studying, finals are on the 4th and 5th of May. Imma wild out on CINCO DE MAYO. Then I have graduation on May15th. WOOOHOOO....reallllllWOOORLD.....here I come!!!!!!!!!

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Sat, 28 Mar 2009 15:13:17 GMT

.................so folks it seems as if during skool time I hardly get a chance to update xanga as I would like so heres a new why to keep up with what im doing......twitter me folks..........BigGalSwagg........

Spring Break Coming To The End And....

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 02:38:58 GMT

only 5 weeks left of school. Yeah....last day of classes is MAY 1st which is a friday then finals are the 4,5 and I will be taking 3 finals, Operations and Research, International Business, and International Marketing.

Right now Im currently on spring break. Ive been back in New York since the 13th of March and I will be going back this sunday. I have had alot of fun over the break. Ive been keeping busy, only having about two down days of nothing doing crap, but atleast I got to caught up on my sleep, napping, and making my graduation announcements.

Im also in the process of looking for a black dress for graduation...and some nice black wedges or pumps......why all the black like a funeral....IDK.....but thats what they want...so thats what Imma give them.....plus some type of accessory...like a purple belt or something to spice it up.

Ive done a little shopping over the break, and I also got my hair done...I got it done in kinky twist....they took about 4 to 5 hrs to do...I like them...and others seems to like em too.

I got to chill with a lot of people I dont get to chill with on the regular due to the fact that Im away at skool. I also got to learn a few things about people.

I also realize that Im not as tough as I thought I was...I let things get to me even tho I know its not that major.

I also fell head over heels with "So Far Gone" the mixtape by DRAKE....Ive been a huge fan of Drake since Degrassi........and even when he put out comeback season and room for improvement....but this one.......he just shitted on niggas HARD........The Future is DRAKE........if you havent checked it out...get wit it quick....its a movement baby....LOL

Pickin' Up The Pieces....

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 15:36:02 GMT

I wanna patch times up with my bestfriend....I would call her my former bestfriend....but to me once a bestfriend always a bestfriend....we've been through so much ish together, and it all started in my sophmore year in high school and her freshmen year......the problem is....that we are both stubborn...and neither of us wanna give in.....but Im tossing in the towel NOW....I wanna patch up this friendship....it might not be as strong and tight as it was before...but anything is better then nothing...and we can work our way back to where we were.....the ball is now in your court............what do you say Dee....you forgive me for all the dumb shit Ive done, havent done, should have done......can we be friends again? Its up to you!

Karla